Questioning Myself
It’s funny, although I don’t know you personally, I want to give you the best version of me and sometimes that means that I don’t give you any version of me.
I’m often questioning myself on this lifestyle journey. Does my body look good enough to show on social media? Why is my tummy so big, but people think it’s small. I feel ashamed of my body, I feel like I’m not working hard enough to be on social media. I should be working a lot harder.
I’m living every day in this body that was once 391 lbs, I was diagnosed with diabetes and high cholesterol which I’m currently monitoring my numbers without medication (thank goodness), and I often wonder why people watch my YouTube channel or follow me on Instagram? So many other women out there seem to have it all together, and I personally follow them.
It’s been through your messages and comments, that I’ve come to learn that the reason that I continue to share is YOU. You encourage me with your feedback. When I share about my weight gain, divorce, or depression, you respond to me with messages letting me know that you understand, that you’ve been through it too, or that you’re going through it with me.
Being vulnerable during this process has been hard but it’s been the only way to address many underlying issues I had around eating and laziness. Yes…I’m talking solely about myself…I was lazy and on some days, I still am. But being open and honest throughout this journey has allowed me to connect and share with you, which has inspired and motivated me to keep going.
Thank you for your support over the years. I don’t think you truly realize how much you’ve inspired me to keep going. I’ve received messages from women all over the world, all ages, and all sizes. We all have a very similar story to share, many have amazing testimonies and others are currently sharing their story.
These stories encourage us to push another day. When we read about someone that has overcome something that we’ve struggled with, there is the sense of “I can do it too” and you can, and you do.
I say all this because I’d like to share little tidbits about my journey, my struggles, and everything in between with you right here.
You Got This! We Got This! Let’s Go <3
